I was not raised in a Christian home. My mother (who has since passed away) told me I went to Sunday School before I was six years old, but I have no memory of it at all. When I was a teenager I had two friends, one of them a Mormon and one of them from an Anglican church, and they always used to argue about who the Lord Jesus Christ was. I always used to wonder why they were arguing. For a time I went to the Anglican church with my friend, and when she went forward for communion, I wondered why I couldn’t go. One day my friend’s father asked me if I had been baptized, and when I said no, he told me I couldn’t go to heaven if I wasn’t baptized. Now I know that isn’t true, because the thief on the cross wasn’t baptized but the Lord Jesus said to him “Today thou shalt be with me in paradise” upon his confession that Jesus was Lord. From that time on I wanted to be baptized. I went to church with my friend and her family for quite a while, even went to a youth group, but if I ever heard the gospel, it went in one ear and out the other because I don’t remember it.
When I was in my early twenties, I began to wonder where I was going in life, and what the future held. I worked for the provincial government and there was a girl working there who was known to be a Christian. She was filled with an inner beauty that the others did not have. I had a very foul mouth at that time, and one day I took the Lord’s name in vain in her presence and she just quietly looked up and me and said “please don’t swear, I’m a Christian”. I have never forgotten that.
I sought to find out about my future in the occult, visiting fortune tellers and the like.. I married and had two children and when they were aged about 5 and 2, a day came when an Avon lady came to my door and it occurred to me that maybe I could sell Avon, and so that is how I met the manager, who was always so peaceful and happy. She always was saying Praise the Lord, and so one evening when I was at her place, I asked her what was the source of her peace. She began telling me that she was a Christian, and I thought, oh she’s a bible thumper, but she proceeded to tell me all about the rapture and about the terrors of the tribulation and how the Christians were going to be raptured, and everyone else would be left behind to go through it; this was in the 70s, very much before those “left behind” books. After I left her house, in the car on the way home, through fear I asked the Lord Jesus to be my Saviour because I wanted to escape the tribulation, and I started going to church with her. Then after about a year, she decided to attend the earlier meeting so I stopped attending, and I fell back to living the way I had before.
Ten years passed and my husband and I were divorced. One night in 1985 after a particularly bad experience, I went to bed and said “I give up Lord, I can’t do it anymore, you do it for me.” And 1 year after that I met another man completely by the intervention and plan of God, and we were married 2 1/2 months later.
My husband was a Christian, and I believed I was also because of my experience with the Avon manager. He did not want a working wife, so I quit my job and had lots of time at home to browse his very extensive collection of bibles and Christian books. One of them was called “Beyond the Crystal Ball” by Merrill Unger. I thought it was a book about the occult, but it soon became clear that it was all about the new age movement, and the gospel of salvation through our Lord Jesus Christ. I began to be convicted that something was not quite right with me.
I also began at that time to watch a show called the 700 club and one day the gospel was clearly preached and I was convicted in my heart that salvation was about Sin! I knew then that I was a sinner, and that I needed the Lord Jesus’ redeeming precious blood to wash me of my sins. In tears I called upon the Lord Jesus to save me from my sins, and NOT from the tribulation.. After that I began attending church where my husband had been going to for 8 years, and a few months later, was baptized..
Looking back, I can see God’s guidance and protection all through my life and I praise and thank Him for His Sovereign grace that saved such a sinner as me. Praise His Holy Name.
Proverbs 3:5-6 “Trust in the Lord with all thine heart and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him and he shall direct thy paths.”
and may I add, that if you are involved in the occult, run away because it is of the devil and will lead to your destruction. Believe the gospel, that you are a sinner and that Jesus Christ on the cross took upon himself the penalty for your sin, and shed his precious blood. He gave up his spirit, was buried, and rose again early morning on the first day of the week that we who have trusted in Him have hope of everlasting life…
Romans 3:23 “For all have sinned, and come short of the glory of God.
Acts 16:31 “…believe on the Lord Jesus Christ, and thou shalt be saved…”
John 3:36 “He that believeth on th Son hath everlasting life: and he that believeth not the Son shall not see life, but the wrath of God abideth on him.”
Jesus said John 14:6 “I am the way, the truth, and the life: no man cometh unto the Father but by me.